Here is ze Brad and myself. Yeah, we're so, totally in the same place at the same time. Brad flew up yesterday and my buddy Ryan and his wife helped me to pick him up from the airport. I would have gone down there alone, but I still had to fix the speedometer on my car. That actually turned out to be pretty easy. A few more complications have arisen, but I think that we'll be able to overcome them in reasonably short order.
Let me tell you, though, that I am so, so, SO excited to move back. It's been a long year, up here in the wooded north. I've learned to make decisions, and I think that I'm not overthinking like I used to. No longer timid or hesitant, I feel like I'm a stronger, more capable person for having been here.
That said, I'm ready to live again. Sales figures and productivity goals are, I've decided, not a good central focus in my life. I'm ready to make decisions that I'll regret, I'm ready to unapologetically offend others when I tell them that I think they're doing the same. I'm ready to embrace spontaneity, I'm ready to solicit it in others. I'm ready to go to parties and gatherings whenever I can. When there aren't any going on, I'm ready to slap together my own. I'm ready to talk. I'm ready to listen.
There's so much in life that I haven't had up here. You only realize what you had when you lose it, I guess. I had never been able to let my friends know how important they are to me and, now that I know, I'm not going to lose another chance. Most of all, I think I'm ready to be in love, again. For years, I had been completely spoiled. I had been in one relationship or another for so long that I think I forgot how important they are, and what life is like when you're single. Now that I
am, though, I can honestly say that, if I really wanted to, I could out the rest of my life this way-- If it was what I thought was best, I could die alone.
But I don't think that would be best; I think that would be cowardly. There is so,
so much inside of me that I cannot and could not share with someone with whom I didn't share a complete and exceptionless commitment. There is, afterall, only so much growth possible in any one direction.
However, I know there's no rush. Love, to me, is not comparable to oxygen-- To view it that way, in my opinion, greatly degrades it as the focus of a lover is self-interest rather than the celebration of a partner. I don't need it to survive, so if it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen. I'm still going to have the time of my life, and single people supposedly have more fun anyway. ^_~
Truthfully, I look forward to being around all of my friends as a fully-functional single young man. There's a unique friendship opportunity when the other person isn't always worried that everything they say might be getting back to my love-interest. People trust me more when what they see is what they get. I'm excited about that because there are a lot of people, even close friends, whom I'd like to get to know better.
Well, enough rambling-- down to business:
Brad and I are fixing the car the rest of the way, today. If there's still time, we'll pack everything up later and, if not, we'll do it tomorrow. Then, my co-workers want to go to dinner, and that'll be my and Brad's official send-off. Depending on what route we take, we should be home before elevensies. Complications pending, I plan to go to Grady's wedding (still a little weirded out, but I wouldn't miss it for the world) and hope to see as many people there as possible. Also, I don't start work until April 30th, so call me and we'll hang out. And, if you for some reason decide not to call me before then, call me thereafter and we'll still hang out. =D
Point is, there's not a single person I don't want to see. If you know me well enough to be reading this, you need to call me so we can go to lunch, a movie, dancing, a museum, or do whatever strikes your fancy. And strike your fancy we shall.
Anyway, call me.
OMG I'M SO EXCITED! BYE!
/Addison Stuart
PS-- I'm now packing up my computer. If you want to talk to me, the best way to do it will be to call me. Let nothing stand in the way of doing so. ^_^